A Real Treat!
June 19, 2010
So I found my old diaries from elementary and middle school, and let me tell you, I sure did laugh when I read them. I used to think that I was a very good writer and that someday I would become a world-famous author. Yeah, um, I was a very silly girl.
I also realized that I was obsessed with boys. More so than usual. Almost every entry in my journals are about the current boy who I liked and how much I was falling in love with them and how they loved me back. Half of the time, I would write about a boy that I caught staring at me, and immediately I assumed that he was in love with me. Usually following that thought, I would make myself like him because I was convinced that he liked me back. Yes, I was a bit full of myself, assuming that every guy that looked at me wanted to be with me. Today is going to be a real treat because you will get to see a small excerpt of my middle school girl thought process.
February 2, 2005
Today is groundhogs day! Today at Solid Rock, it was Karlin’s 19th birthday! She brought ice cream cake, but I didn’t eat it. Well, my ‘gang’ is in charge of the ‘candy shop’ or wut eva. Only my group / girls are allowed back there. No one else! Jehosaphat* and Miguel* came into our territory. Amber and I were the body guards. We shooed them away. They kept kicking their feet and hands past the ‘imaginary line.’
j=jehosaphat, b=becca
(Jehosaphat sticks his hand past the line)
b: wut r u doing (haha)
j: i don’t know
I said something to him! I said to Amber, Cristina, and Jehosaphat “You know, if you look into the light, it will be bright.” Jehosaphat said, “oh, I was going to turn it on but it’s already off.” He said something to me! And he stood next to me w/out leaving cause I was there! We even made eye contact, and we smiled @ each other several times! I wasn’t even nervous! I was myself for once! He smiled @ me when I looked at him once, and I smiled back! I’m so happy!
That was a journal entry, word for word. It makes me laugh, seeing how I used to write and how much I was obsessed with guys at such a young age. This entry was from 7th grade; why on earth was I excited that I told a boy that “if you look into the light, it will be bright”?? Honestly, that is one of the stupidest things I have ever said. Ha I love it, nonetheless. And even though I am still not the best writer, at least I know that my writing is way better than it was in 7th grade, thank goodness.
*Names have been changed due to keep me from any embarrassment, just in case people that I know (and also know those boys) read this blog.
